I woke up from drinking It seems that getting drunk every night is my ultimate destination. Although BTC is already over 80000 yuan and the market seems to be in a bull market, I feel that it is becoming increasingly difficult for small funds to make money Also, it seems that my execution ability has worsened ... harm Perhaps my mental strength is weak and my mindset has aged Well, finally living as a young Nakaden I don't understand what to play in this "bull" market anymore. Maybe I've been in this circle for too long, I've seen all kinds of plates, I don't have much faith anymore, I don't believe in any fresh narratives, and I don't want to take on any more deals. And I don't have any big money, I can't afford BTC, and I can't afford to play in the US stock market I hate meeting people offline, I hate playing games with others, I hate living in someone else's evaluation system, and I hate money and number rankings. Sometimes I feel that the process of pursuing the original intention is the most meaningful. When I first entered the crypto industry and touched various sectors, whether it was contracts, mining, or NFTs, those moments were the happiest for me Various cool things, many filters have not been broken I am also willing to believe in some things. I really don't know what to do now Sometimes I feel like I'm in an inner circle, like I don't belong to any group, like I have a lot of accumulation and resources, but it seems like I can't do anything. To be honest, it's quite exhausting, and often when I write content, I force myself to output it .. I have tried to communicate with Gemini, but I feel like I am trapped in another type of information cocoon anxiety Recently, my mind has been filled with the video of Papi sauce cooking eggs, and sometimes I wonder what I really want I really don't seem to know I sometimes envy those who have high material desires And for those with a strong desire for sex (practical), I seem to have no other consumption besides eating .. I want to take a gap for a while to spend my Odyssey period learning how to cook eggs. As an East Asian child of NPD parents, it is necessary to repair the heart damage left by their original family and adjust the frontal lobe injury caused by long-term sagging. Now we have caught up with the economic downturn and the trend of AI. As someone with a highly sensitive constitution, my cortisol levels have always been high, and now I am constantly fluctuating between avoidant and dependent personalities. There are always people mocking you for having ADHD symptoms and falling into nihilism. As an INFP, I can only listen to podcasts, accumulate aesthetic knowledge, find my own subjectivity, and do a good job in separating topics, hoping to achieve great results.